
Turn down the volume…please.
Is it just me? Am I the only one? Does anyone else have difficulty in turning their mind off? In those moments of downtime, does your mind bounce back and forth, like a ping-pong ball in one of those lotto games? Well, mine does. And it’s exhausting sometimes.
I’m a night owl by nature, more comfortable staying up til 4:00a.m. and waking at noon than I am with, the more realistic, to bed around 11:00 and up at 5:30a.m. that is jobs and kids. So it’s fairly easy for me to fall into a bit of insomnia. My damn brain does me no favors in this regard. Often, the moments when I first lay down are the busiest in the traffic clusterfuck that my mind can be. Reminds me of “Crosstown Traffic” by Jimi Hendrix. But I digress (see what I mean?).
And that’s the thing. I CAN focus…when I have a purpose. I do fine at work. And I have to focus on my patients and all of the endless documentation that is required in today’s world of healthcare providing. If I’m completing a home repair project, and I’ve done many, some very complicated, as we naively bought a dilapidated, vacant old farmhouse 15 years ago, I can do it and stay focused.
But its in those down times that I wander, that I drift in and out of thoughts, worries, friends, appointments, work, kids, wife. And they’re so quick in coming, and fleeting in time present. Like a lightning strike, BAM, outta nowhere, and gone quickly while leaving an indelible ethereal outline for a second. Then, BAM, another one over there. They come and they go, one hen another. Often on totally divergent and unrelated topics, sent off on a tangent by a word or an image. Sheesh! Is it just me? Is it ADD? I don’t really know. I just kinda wish my brain was like a radio and I could just turn down the volume sometimes.
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here sit, front porch swing , wide awake, 1::00 in the morning. Geez!
Lol nope, you are certainly not alone in that buddy!
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I figured as much, just checkin’. Sucks sometimes, huh?
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Totally! That is usually when I just crank up the music and try to drown out the sounds in my mind 😉
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Beats are wonderful things! Thanks Dr Dre!
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Yes 😉
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That’s one scary looking radio! You see the eyes, the mouth and the teeth?
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Hahaha! That’s hilarious! My 12 year old son has autism, mild. He sees faces in cars, lawnmowers, etc. he said nearly the same thing! Lol!
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Good to know I am not the only one!
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Nope, you are not alone. Your comment made literally laugh out loud. Ill tell him you saw it too.
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It seems like the volume gets intensely high when you can’t seem to sleep
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Doesn’t it though? I’d love to be able to turn it down. My mind doesn’t always cooperate though.
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