Blessing or Curse

By: sonofabeach96

Jan 05 2016

Category: Uncategorized


Empathy as a higher form of knowledge?  I’m not so sure about that.  I’m what my friend Melanie once referred to as an empath.  Empathy for others’ plights is part of my core.  I don’t have to try, it just happens.  Much like breathing, sneezing, or yawning, my empathetic reflex is involuntary.

Empathy is a good thing, most of the time.  It keeps me grounded, allows me to see my blessings, and gives me the ability to understand where others are coming from.  But it can be a real pain in the ass sometimes.

It can cause sadness, frustration, and even anger, all for things that don’t even directly affect me.  Friends, family, co-workers, and even strangers, sometimes a world away.  And my patients?   Oh lord!  Their pain, their sorrows, their hurt, their frustrations?  I can viscerally feel it.  I can’t turn it off at the end of the day.  Even those people I’m mad at or have been wronged by.  I feel for them and their situations, even through brewing ire.

I don’t know why, I don’t know how.  I didn’t ask for it, this additional burden.  I’ve got enough on my plate to keep me occupied for the rest of my days.  It’s emotionally draining, and physically exhausting.   But I can’t prevent the tidal wave of emotion I feel from others’ travails, even those who don’t deserve or haven’t earned that level of empathy.

Empathy as a higher form of knowledge?  I disagree.  As a curse or a blessing?  Not sure.  A little of both I suppose.

My songs of the day are:

“Cookie Jar” by Jack Johnson

“My Left Hand’s Free” by alt-J

“Eleanor Rigby” by The Beatles

“Free Until They Cut Me Down” by Iron and Wine

“Close My Eyes” by Matisyahu

“Hand It Over” by Keb’ Mo’



24 comments on “Blessing or Curse”

  1. This is a truly insightful post.
    Empathy might just be a bit of both!

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  2. I think it’s both. Empathy.

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  3. It is a curse if you don’t get the time to reload your batteries. It’s a blessing if you can use the knowledge to be a step a head. I know what you mean by being drained. It’s exhausting to be around people who comes with “feeling-clouds”.

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  4. I am going to venture to say that it is a blessing for those that you are helping/concerned about and a curse for you. I seem to think that you lessen their burden by absorbing it. Tell me something (please): how do you feel when your patients walk out the door, never to return because your job is done. Is there a moment of elation/pride/joy? A small glance of appreciation?

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    • I’m happy for them, and it makes me feel good. I’ve done my job, helped them gain independence, and got them home. It is rewarding. But the ones that don’t get better, don’t get home? Those are the ones that kill me.

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  5. It does take its toll, caring, nurturing, feeling, but when it all comes together for the better of one….there is not other feeling like it….that’s what we live for….its in our blood, our soul….from one nurturer to another….job well done…kat

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  6. I wanted to tell you too that most of us don’t work in professions that require us to give out our heart everyday. And you have probably heard this before, but you are helping every single one of them all the time, even if it doesn’t show. Hopefully you can find some uplifting energy in the comments here to help recharge your batteries. Always know that I am here with an ear.

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    • It’s draining at times, to be sure. But it’s not just my patients that get me. I’m finding this to be a great outlet and resource. Thanks for the ear. I’ll probably be taking you up on that sometime I’m sure. 😃

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  7. I agree 100%! Some days it’s a blessing and others a curse. I’m like my Mom but her ability to touch so many people’s lives is definitely more of a struggle for me with the depression. My Dad says while we feel pain n sadness he will never know, we also experience such amazing happiness and joy he can only witness. Hugs!

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